Love Desire And Gravy ©©

One day I woke up and out the door I went

Where I was going I knew not 

I climbed a mountain until I found nothing but snow

Yet I still look up at that one empty spot in the sky

From coast to coast I wander

Across calm lakes and raging rivers I cross

Moving forth before I flounder and fall

So I can reach something I desire

Desire Is what blinds me to love

They say love conquers all but I stand here 

Desire is so strong when all you have is sacrifice

Love is a mountain onto another mountain

In the space between love and desire

There is only chaos in my heart

Take me to a time when I knew not

What toll must be endured to find love

Holding onto love is harder as desire fades away

The fires need to be fed so that love can seduce desire once more

Otherwise why did I go out into the wilderness

If not to find love too feed my desires

Walker

Thinking Back ©©

Laying here watching time drift away

Thinking about yesterday

All the way back to the beginning of time

At the first light of your dawn

We come from the darkness 

A womb that gave us warmth and security

Into the light of day for fate to swallow up

To be thrown up time and again

The faces of those you met 

Pass before your eyes like the stars in the night sky

The feelings we hold for each one slowly drift away

As do the years 

All hopes and dreams left behind

All the dreamers melt away into obscurity

The voices that inspire who we must be 

For there to be a future full of hope

Between the light and darkness 

Is where we breed life for hope to exist

It’s where we learn about pain and love

The cost and the reward

Are we the ones that are left behind

Are we the survivors of our own dreams

Or is this the nightmare that we created

To suffer for what we can’t have 

What have we learned for all the sacrifice

That we will do it all again and again

Until we get it right

Or it will be the end

Laying here looking at what is left

Thinking about tomorrow

All the way to the end of time

Where the darkness awaits your return

Walker

Still Breathing ©©

Another breath another day on this earth

Cursed to wander through life without true meaning

The nights are long and lonely 

The days a nightmare to endure 

Memories hide the pain of the man I was

Every scar, every blemish, every mark seen or unseen

Every fleeting heart that slipped away

Each a story burned deep into my soul 

Sleepless nights lost in thoughts of what might have been

I turned away from what I wanted to do what was right

I took you and put you in his arms then I died

Only the stars remember your name as I look up from this grave where I remain 

Every breath is another pain crushing a lonely lie

From afar I saw your pain when consume with loss

To my relief he was there to hold you tight as I wish I could have been

As the echos of time die into the night a face in the crowd washes away

How can you find true love after you gave it away

The scars you can’t see burn the most

Still I remain to go insane with regret 

Another breath to carry me forward to the next scar to mark my soul again

Walker

Ghost ©©

I walk the streets a ghost 

Cold rain falling from above

Thunder screaming my name from up there in the sky

It’s brilliant finger pointing down at me

Who are you old man

The rain won’t wash away those sins or hide all those scars

Look at who you have become

Where is who you were

Cold rains bring memories of times gone by

Places long gone and people that faded into memory

Cold rain burns the soul with every drop a thought

Soothing a pain that’s carried deep down inside

The shadows hide different creatures from what was when I look back

A new scar on an old street

The cold rain is still drowning out the night

Hiding the pain beneath the crying stars

People come and people go but the cold rain stays the same

For every truth there is always a lie, only the stars know what’s real

Cold rain washes away the years gone by revealing a man lost in the corners of time

Knowing where he has been but not knowing where he belongs

I know the man but time has betrayed his heart and  soul

The shadows have weakened my step

Time withers away the body

The cold rain awakens the desire I never lost

Walker

Light Of The Dark ©©

The night is over as the sun slowly rises in the east

The light washing away the darkness 

Revealing what sins are left behind for others to discover

Shattered dreams that were but silent words born from an aching heart

The night is over when I close my eyes and you become but a memory

A vision for me to reach out for to draw into my dreams

To see the shine in you eyes as you look into mine

Before I wake and you are gone once more to another life

The night is over when the last breath is used up in this reality and tomorrow finally ends

No dreams or memories to bring us back to that one and only yearning

That place we all search for that always seems to drift away to someone else

A place that’s not a place but a shadow that slowly fades away into the light of day

The night is over as is this dream

Like most dreams, this one wasn’t real

The night just makes it feel real

I lay in the embrace of the darkness my true lover when the night is over

Walker

Is It Over ©©

I’m a dreamer

I’m a thinker

I have been a father

A lover

I have been the villain

A hero to some

Close your eyes and think of what I’ve said

Ask yourself

Who am I

Who are we

Who am I deep inside where it hurts when I lie

Who am I when I look away from the mirror

What was yesterday is lost to time

Slowly fading from my mind

The darkness creeps over what is left

Only the heart stubbornly holds onto a sliver of hope for words that were once given

Something that isn’t really there anymore

It’s just what you want and can’t have

I look into the night sky and watch my dreams drift away

Up into the darkness among the shining stars

For someone else with the fire to hope for what they desire

Is it over for me 

No, I don’t think so

I’m not who I once was or ever will be

The silence I find in the still of the night

Is the music that soothes a burning mind

The embrace of the darkness caressing my soul

While I become who I must be, the new me

When the night is over do the stars still shine

As I drift away into tomorrow

Walker

What Never Began ©©

How long has it been

I can’t remember who you are

When did we meet, where

How did all of this begin

How did it all end

Did it

Cold is the emptyness inside

Where there was always nothing

Yet something still remains

Betrayed by a longing heart once again

We couldn’t have been

If there has to be an end

I don’t remember your face

Do you remember mine

Was it all real or are you just a wish I never made

I don’t remember loving you

Maybe I never did

If we never even had been

How can I love you 

When I don’t feel the love for you

How long has it been

Was it the only time we met

That one and only glimpse

When I fell in love once again

Walker

Rain ©©

Rain is falling

Washing away any ghosts still lingering

Diluting the tears of time

Breaking down the weight I carry

Rain is falling all night long

Chilling, tasteless relentless

Erasing footsteps i once called mine

Places I had to go

Rain is falling

Pounding onto my skin

Lightning stabs the night 

The sky bleeds down on my soul

The rain is still falling

Through all the fires and pain

Across every memory

Especially those that hurt the most 

The rain is falling

I see all the faces in the puddles left behind

This is all that’s left of me

Screaming in the rain as I slowly fade away

Walker