Silent Nights ©©

Where has it all gone?
Those days far and away
What has happened?
The smiling faces I always searched for

How did everything become so strange?
Those things so familiar
Who was that stranger in the night?
The one in the mirror

When did the color fall off the walls?
Those that held up the sky
Why did the rivers dry up?
When there were no more tears left to shed

Where am I going?
When there is no path to the past
What is there left?
But a hole in my pocket

How to move forward?
If you’re scared to fall
Who will be there to catch you?
If everyone, everything you know is in the past

When will there be another dawn?
If all there are is sunsets
Why can’t I find some thread?
To sow up the hole

Where…, what, How…who and when

Where…..

here

now…..

Walker

The Searchers ©©

What am I searching for?
Where am I going?
How can I find what I have never had?
That which was given away before I existed

I just want to melt away
To flow with the rivers to the oceans
To rise up above the world
Then rain down to wash away the pain left behind

Why must I keep searching?
What compels me to go on down this road?
How can I reach what eludes us all?
That which we never had

I just want to spread my wings
To fly up to the sky
To feel the wind against my face, beneath my wings
Then I can crash back down to they’re reality

When did it all go wrong?
Why do, did we all let this happen?
Can it be changed, turned around?
As we walk on the graves of time

I just want to stand on the tallest mountain
To breath in a lungful of freedom
To feel its energy fill my soul
So I would know that it was worth the search

What will it take to make it right?
Where do I go?
What do I have to pay?
Before the interest is to high

I just want to sail away
Someplace far and away
Where there is nothing to do but looking up at the sky
As it looks down on me

Walker

I Walk Until... ©©

I walk down the road alone and free
I walk day and night
I walk from early dawn
Until the sun goes away

I walk and walk some more
I walk until I can’t no more
I walk
Until I fall on the ground

I walk through rain and snow
I walk under the blazing sun or in the bitter cold
I walk the hours away
Until I can’t anymore

I walk from yesterday to today
I walk from everything I love and hate
I walk to where I want to go
Until I am where I want to be

I walk across deserts
I walk past barren souls
I walk through darkness
Until I find the promised land

I walk out of the wilderness to the sea
I walk into the water and beyond
I walk into the sunset
Until I drowned in the dream

I walk until I can’t walk no more
Until there’s no more sunshine
Only darkness and the bitter cold
Until…..

Walker

Dusty Roads ©©

I’ve been traveling down these dusty roads for a long, long time
The names on the signs are all different
As are the faces of those I pass
Yet, they all look familiar

Some are tall, some small
People, houses, buildings and all
All the same as in the last village, town or city
As they will be in the next I find

I crossed oceans to find something different and new
But all I found was more of the same
I even went over mountains for something fresh to breath
But the air is the same there too

Green are my valleys
Dusty roads is what I leave behind
As I look for something new
Something new that would include you

I travel down dark roads
Searching for a ray of sunshine
For a break in the clouds to let a strand of light through
To follow to a new dawn, a new beginning

I walk along with my eyes to the sky
Looking for a crack in the sky
For a star to make a wish on
And the moon to follow to your heart and soul

Walker

Searching ©©

Step after step
Down roads I never seen
To a new day
A new dawn and a new way

Past old memories
Old reflection hiding behind every mirror
Past dieing seconds, minutes
Days that will never be once again

Away from yesterdays
Away from what I wanted
To somewhere I never seen
A future, a new dawn for today and tomorrow

Broken chains on the ground
Shackles that bound my soul
Freedom I have now found
From who I wanted to be

From the shadows to the light
To stand under a full moon to shine
To shine with the other lights in the sky
Trying to be seen

Step by step into the void
Coloring the way with every breath
Searching, looking
For me

Walker

A Pack Of Memories ©©

I light a smoke
Then throw the match away
Like everything else that I have tossed
Left on the side of the road to smolder

Walking by as the thin line disappears
Blown away and forgotten with each step
As is most of everything in history
Dead and gone from the eyes to see, but not the mind

The bourbon burns it’s way as it passes
Yet the tongue still tastes bitter
The throat constricts
Choking on what was

Today, I want to remember
What I can’t see anymore
I want to choke on the truth
To suffocate within the past

Inside the delirium
I find what I don’t have
A breath I had once expelled
Oxygen that once gave life

In dreams lived
Nightmares had
Through the blood and pain
That never existed yet is the only reality

With each drag
More ashes are born to sweep away
More dust to cover the past
To hide the unforgettable

Smoke after smoke
Smoldering matches thrown aside
Searching for something to see
Something hidden away

With one last breath
One deep drag to blow out one final curtain
For the eyes to project the past to see
Until it’s time to light another smoke

Walker

Thakri ©©

I feel the rain tapping on the window
Each drop a heartbeat
Every beat sending a vibration to my mind

Pressed against the glass I close my eyes
See, relive the past
Old times, through old eyes

Walking down hallways filled with doors
Each without a doorknob
Only a peephole to look in

All are white, sterile
Flush with the wall
As if, they had blossomed there

Each door I pass slows my step
Until I stood staring at one door
No different than the rest

A step closer, my palms pressed against it
With my head leaning on its hard surface
Eyes staring at the tiny window

Pushing my chin down I peered into the a long tunnel
Lips pressed against the wall
A smile grew where there was none

A warmth passed through my hands
Filling me with a renewed energy
A sense of accomplishment

Across to the other door
Through the other looking glass
I laughed until I cried

The next was personal
A secret only I know
I will never tell

Down the long hall
From door to door
Memory to memory

To one that was cold
Cold as ice
My face pushed against its side

Through the long tunnel
Into yesterday I saw
Saw what I hate to see

Fingers brush past the peepholes of time
With each step forward
Until I’m back to the beginning

Back to the window
To the raindrops knocking to get in
And the one on my cheek that escaped

Walker

Burning Desire ©©

An early morning mist rises from the moist ground to mingle with the dieing fog just before dawn’s early sun fuses them together into a misty cloud to slowly rise up to the heavens gracefully as one until the winds come together and pry them apart leaving only their tears to pour upon the earth to lay in wait for the sun to set and the moon to bring the mists of time back to life once more at the cusp of dawn to be joined again, be it for just a short time.

Walker

Eight Days ©©

There is only seven days in a week
Eight would be nicer
Five to work two to rest
One more to dream

Dream of the future
My desires
You
Of escaping from what’s real to somewhere not here

Eight days to be fulfilled with what’s real
And what’s not
With my desires to keep me warm when the world’s
Tearing me apart

Seven days to live
And one to be alive
To feel the feelings I miss
Or find feelings I never felt

Eight days so I could exist for one
Even if it’s in a world of make believe
The soul only sees what the heart feels
Lives for what it desires

Eight is the magic number
The number that opens the door to my dreams
Eight days for a world I am searching for
One more day to feel free, to be me

Another day to escape to the land of the lost
To be found by someone looking for me
Maybe you, maybe not
Maybe…

But there is only seven days
One less than what I truly need
One less to find my dreams
Forcing me to steal time to find a piece of my desires

Eight days is what I need
One more than I got
Unless I had someone to share
The eighth day would be you

Walker

Rocky Road ©©

Wounded and walking down this dusty road
Tripping over life every day and night
Times are changing and shoving me aside
But, I won’t go away

Limping along, stumbling across time
Stubbornly existing my way to the bitter end
Searching for places that still see what I see
Places unpolluted by today

Today is chasing me away from yesterday
Denying me my wish, my dreams
So I disappear into the dust
To a dusty yesterday

Standing at the rocky edge, on my last leg
I see what lies on the next step
What am I afraid of?
Why have I been running away?

One step forward is tomorrow
One step back is today
One step forward is peace
One back is war

Walking down this rocky slope
Kicking stones out of the way
Going back to slow today down
To remember yesterday

Walking towards yesterday to find tomorrow
Searching for what I lost and never found
For what we forgot along the way
To slow down today for tomorrow to catch up

I fight for what I want
Take what I need
Give what I can give and live
For tomorrow

Walker

Forbidden Smoke ©©

Today is the first day
And the last
Every day is a beginning
And an end

The mornings are bright
Brighter when you’re there
Draped across my body
From the night before

Mornings are a lost dream
The backwash from the night before
When the moon was full
The sky was crystal clear

Lost among the tall grass
Away from prying eyes
Immorally bleeding our souls into each other
Among the swaying shadows

Stoking the fires of hell
Until the world erupts
In a blaze of glory
From the depths of time

Howling at the night
Until world falls silent once more
Drained of all emotion
Even fear

Lighting smokes
I watch our dreams as they drift away
Up in the smoke from her lips
Disappearing in the night air

A cold wind whispers her name
Blowing her away from me once more
Back to where she belongs
Where she has promised to be

To the another world
Behind closed doors among the enemy
Away from the dark shadows
And me

The afternoons are numb
Evenings are lonely
At night I see our dream in the smoke
Every time I exhale

Today is the first day and the last
Each day is the beginning to the last
The end to the next
As the mornings are always bright

Walker

Midnight Blue ©©

I saw it in the sky
Read it in the stars
I felt it when it happened
As it buckled my knees

I danced through the night
Eyes closed
Around all the obstacles
Spinning my own web to corral my desires

Tied up with what I want
With what I can’t reach
I bow to what I have
But I still look for what I desire

I don’t want what I have
But its all there is
What I have, what I got
What exists in this my world

I saw it in the sky
You looking down on me
Smiling at me once more
Like before, before time had passed

I heard the voices
From foreign lips, bitter words
Words unknown to my ears
Yet your eyes said something else

I read it in your eyes
Then I told the sky
It dropped a tear on my cheek
Then it cried for me

Once more I fall back
To what I know
To the one who always wants me
The one who is always there

Together again
Clapping from puddle to puddle
The moon and I dance through the night
Until it’s time for both of us to go

Walker

The Blow Job ©©

Walking down the street
Heels clicking
Ass dancing all around
She look my way and whispers

Blowjob mister
It’ll be sweet
Blowjob mister
I know the beat

Taking me by the hand
She walked me to an alley
Just down the street
Where she got down and whispered

Blowjob mister
It’ll be sweet
Blowjob mister
I know the beat

Back and forth
Down then up
Watching the back her head
Going all around as me ears heard

Blowjob mister
It’ll be sweet
Blowjob mister
I know the beat

Five bucks
Here’s ten more
Just keep the change
And she whispered

Blowjob mister
It’ll be sweet
Blowjob mister
I know the beat

Walker

Born Of Legend ©©

What?
What is that?
What did you say……….?

Again and again
How many times must I dream it?
How many times must I want it?
How many times more

How many…..?

When does it stop
When
When do I say no more
When will I see what’s right

What’s not….?

In the wilderness
Was it better?
Free without a care
Breathing in the sweet air

Yet, without a home….

Rules
Upon rules
Links upon links
Binding us in chains

Killing us slowly…

Like beasts in a zoo
Broken and no more
Just a flicker remains
Just existence

Broken souls….

When will the rains come?
When will the cold tears wake us up?
Make us stand straight once more
Wash away this daze

Has freedom become that of legend…?

What we give away freely
Is hard to take back
From those who craved yours
Then took mine

Where has it gone…?

Freedom
Something we were born with
Freedom

Walker

Stranger ©©

Look at me
Have you ever seen me?
Do you recognize my reflection?
Do you know my name?

Can you feel what I feel?
My pain
The claws tearing me up inside
Is it in my head or my soul?

Where has it all gone?
The time, the laughter
The familiar faces
From the long gone places

Faded memories
Distorted thoughts
An existence eaten away by time
The crumbs remain in this tortured mind

I have become a stranger
To the world, to life
Myself
Even my shadow looks like someone else

I stand on this mountain
Staring at the crossroads of time
Trapped between heaven and hell
Frozen still in a blue flame

I can’t go back
Only forward to an unknown
In an unforgiving world
Far from what I know

Where is home?
Is it where I lay down?
Or where I want to be?
Is it in my heart or in my mind?

Who am I?
Who are you?
Where are we?
Where are we going?

Do you know my name?
Or where I’m from
Do I exist?
Or am I a shadow walking through time

Walker

Today And Forever ©©

Today and forever
I’ll be dreaming of you
Yesterdays will always brighten tomorrows
So the present can live one more day

Sadness will always drown in tears of joy
As happiness is always close by
Even when dark clouds veil the sunshine
Your warmth still reaches out on cold days and colder nights

Long fingers lick at my feet with every wave
Crawling out of the oceans of my mind
Pushing me away
Then pulling me in to drown

In the morning I’m never alone
The sun sets on both worlds
At night I remember your eyes
Just as I remember the stars twinkling up in the skies

Memories dance among the mists of time
Swirling among other thoughts
Dreams that have been cast away
Out of reach into the deep oceans of time

All that remain are the dark shadows
The lingering memories
Yesterday’s fade through time
As their glow lights up the present for tomorrow

Today and forever I’ll be dreaming of you
Dreaming of yesterday
Living the present
Until yesterday and today can join in a tomorrow

Walker

In The Darkness ©©

In the darkness
Among rustling leaves
Where the wind whispers in my ear
I try to get lost in the wilderness

Only the trees stand tall
Naked and withered from years gone by
Erect fingers reaching for the stars
Attempting to set roots on earth and heaven

Silence fills the night
Only the leaves speak
Singing their sad song with every step taken
About their fall from the heavens

The wind blows away the crumbs
Sweeping the night clean
For the day to arrive in its glory
Pure as the white light it rides

The trees are street lights
Crumbled paper scattered below it
A gust of wind with every passing car
The black rain in the clouds

In the darkness
I see rustling leaves
Feel the wind on my face
I find myself among the stars

But you have to leave every morning
The light chases you away
Even when I ask you to stay with me
You run away

Only magic can make night to day
Change a leaf to crumbled paper
What magic can I use to make it go back?
To make it all right

If I counted the stars
How many would there be?
If I close my eyes and opened them
Will the wilderness have swallowed up the jungle?

In the darkness

Walker

Holding On ©©

Time passes slowly
Yet to fast
The seasons come and go
They never last

As the days get shorter
The nights get quieter
While the mornings
Become lonelier

The shadows have begun to fade away
With the blowing wind and rolling leaves
Dusk settles on the earth
Time slips away behind the mountains

The road leads between twin peaks
Time and distance
Night and day
For one more chance

To chase yesterday
Or wait for tomorrow
To reach for a dream
Or to waste time you can only borrow

Choices you can make
People you can be
What’s on the other side of the mountain?
Something I have to see?

Yesterday is still fresh on my lips
I haven’t tasted tomorrow yet
Or smelled the scent of her lust
Suckled on her ripe breast

Seconds march by
As fingertips slip away from yesterday
Grasping onto tomorrow's dream
For a time and place to stay

Walker

Deep Woods ©©

Night after night
I look out to the darkness
Looking for a light, a glimmer
A sign of life from this gray wilderness

It’s in the stillness of night
I understand what’s meant to be
Illuminated by the mind’s bright light
To understand the illusion of life and to see

The night holds my life in her hands
Cradling me in her bosom
As she did across many lands
She protected me from certain doom

Only the night can reveal what’s true
Who we are when the sun falls
When the light kneels to her
She reveals our souls

Across night skies
Away from this endless season before I fall from grace
Far from half-truths, lies
I fall back and disappear into her embrace

In the darkness of night
She whispers in my ear
She tells me to stay away from the light
To live here in the night without fear

But who will see me in the mornings
When the night sleeps and I’m left alone
Left to watch all the people from the shadows walking by
Slowly turning to stone

The night is my shadow
My life’s blanket
She keeps me warm when life is cold
In the light I wear my disguise like everyone else

The night is our blanket, our protector
The dark corner to run too
We close our eyes to escape fear
Wishing the evil will not see us

Day after day
Stumbling down the street in a daze
Blinded by the light
Drowning in the noise until the silence of night sets me ablaze

Ablaze for all to see
To know who I am
Not who I use to be
Until she leaves in the morning and I become who I am

Night and day
Day or night
Night or day
Day and night

It’s all the same
We are the shadows and ghosts
The one’s with all the visions
Hidden away in the darkest closets

Walker

Today I Want Something ©©

Today I want something
Today I want something that will make me forget
Forget what can’t be forgotten
The unforgettable

There is something I need to forget
Something that’s been haunting me
Something I don’t know
Today I need something to help me forget

A bitter drink to taste on my lips
To wash away another bitter taste
Something strong to numb my mouth and mind
To change their flavor

Maybe a smoke to inhale
To feel it’s fire burning through my lungs
To blow out the sins of the past
Before I too become ashes to be blown away

Today I want to get drunk
To get lost in the smoke from my breath
Today I want to wander aimlessly in the smoke
Like in the dreams I always have

Inside the smoke I can bare my soul
Surrender who I am and of what I have lost
Until the wind comes to leave me naked with only my thoughts
Dreams, to hide me from the elements of time

Today I want something
Something to make me forget yesterday
Before everything becomes ashes like my smoke
Before the red ember dies away forever

Today I want a toke
To get lost in a world that isn’t real
I light one up and drag deep
And hold it until I disappear within its embrace

Today I want to look back one more time
Before I spill my drink and put out the dreams I had
Today I want to forget what’s not important anymore
To remember what matters

Today I want something
A drink?
A cigarette?
A toke?

Today I want to forget
Today I want to get lost
Lost in my own dreams
To be free of my past

Today I want to be me

Walker