Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Lost In My Mind ©©

I sit here lost in time
Void of any thoughts
Disconnected with any memories
Any sense of who am I

I have become blind
Sands of time bleed from empty sockets
Eroding the past
Leaving only crevices behind

I have become deaf
To my needs and yours
To the cries I don’t see
To the pain I don’t feel

I have lost the ability to speak
There is no one to hear
There is no one out there but the shadows
There is no one that cares

Lost in ones mind
Is it a curse or a blessing
Will I find what I am looking for
Or just fade away and never come back

Sitting here
Lost in time


Friday, June 17, 2016

The MIst ©©

A thick mist rolls across a naked land
A land scared will a billion heartaches
A billion souls scratching the earth for peace
Watered with oceans of bitter tears and a drop of pity

A thick mist kneels down to the ground
Embracing the passage of time
Caressing yesterday
For the tomorrows that may be or not

A thick mist hides what mustn’t be seen
From light or darkness
Light of day only brings on the shadows
Darkness of night hides them away

A thick mist rides a white stallion across the land
What is it bringing?
Is it love?
Or the four horsemen of the apocalypse

A thick mist silently comes……….


Friday, June 03, 2016

I Don't Know ©©

I don’t know where I have been
I don’t know what I have seen
I don’t know where I’m going
Or where I want to be

I don’t know day from night
I don’t know right from wrong
I don’t know the whys
Or the regrets

I don’t know who I am
I don’t know my face
I don’t know my name
Or do I want to know them

I don’t know god
I don’t know the devil
I don’t know good from bad
Or do I care for any of those things

I don’t know the legions of the day
I don’t know the shadows of the night
I don’t know this realm
Or do I wish to rule 

I don’t know the reason to be here
I don’t see the reason to leave
I don’t see the logic
Or the injustice

I don’t know


Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Forget It All ©©

If I walked to the top of the world
Will I know the answers to all the questions
Will the answers be the ones I thought they would be
Or something new

If I watch the night sky
Will I find the star that’s meant for me
Will it be big and bright
Or small and fading away

If I was all alone
Will the world be the same
Will it be perfect
Or just another empty soul

If I lay down and reached for the sky
Will I catch a falling star
Will it grant me a wish
Or burn my hand

If I never grew old
Will I still want to get old
Will I want to die
Or just live and live again

If I knew all the answers
Will I want to share them
Will it make us better
Or should they just be forgotten

If I didn’t need anything
Will it be enough
Will it be fulfilling
Or will I want more

If we play…
If we Love…
If we fight…
We will live forever



Thursday, May 26, 2016

Whatever Happened ©©

What day is it today
What happened to yesterday
What happened to you
Whatever happened to me

Where did it all got wrong
Was it from the start
The middle
Or the end

Who is that in the mirror
Is it the same person
Or someone new
Where did you go

Old pictures
Memories covered in dust
Hiding forgotten faces
The same face

Whatever happened to you
Filled with fire
Burning with desire
Drowning in a maddening thirst

Did someone steal you away
Replacing your image with this one
Why did you have to go away
Leaving us with this impersonator 

Has time stolen everything
Leaving us with scattered crumbs
Fleeting seconds to be chased
But never caught


Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Freedom ©©

What does it mean
Who is it for
How do we get it
Who do we get it from

Is it real
Or an illusion
Can we see it
Feel it
Touch it

Is it part of living
Or the escape at the end
Is it bought and sold
Is it a right
Or a luxury we can’t afford

Another fucken word
A word with meaning
With little substance
The manacles that bind us to society
Our sin

Are we truly free
Can we ever be
Can we put everything down and walk away
Will they even let us leave
Who are they

What can it be for you and me
In a place hidden in the back of my mind
Safe from those who can’t see
Where freedom
Is for free


Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Broken Etch A Sketch ©©

Miles and miles are the questions long
The answers but whispers in the shadows
Long are the nights as days drag on forever
Time is short yet eternal

There is no turning back as there is no way ahead
Today is always at the crossroads
Tripping over yesterday to get to tomorrow
And the secrets they hold

Thoughts crash into memories
Tearing at the fabric of time
Shattering dreams
Making room for something new

My finger pushes through the sands of time
Blood dripping from its tip
Marking memories for the wind to come
To scatter them miles and miles away

Is life an “etch a sketch”
Is it that simple
Can I just hold it up over my head and…
Shake it to start anew


Sunday, April 17, 2016

Holding Onto What's Left ©©

What do you hate?
What do you love?
Is it the same thing?
Is it different?

Do you love to hate?
Hate to love?
Does it make you happy?

Do you show your love?
Hide your hate
Or do you express you hate?
Suppress your love

Do you share with the world?
Maybe just a friend
Or do you keep it to yourself
A shadow that follows

Love and hate
Emotions not words
The only feelings that can be touched
But not controlled

The world is consumed
Driven by love
Blinded by hate
Swallowed by the abyss in our souls


Thursday, April 14, 2016

Idle Keys ©©

I saw the sun rise and stood up to catch it when it fell
The moon stole my heart when a smile ignited my desires
Moments lost in time bring me back to reality
I let go what I want for what is placed before me

Is this how it all works
Do we take what is given us
Do we fight for what we want or crumble in defeat
Forsaking what is lost within our hearts

Where you go I want to be
Where you have been I want see
I want to get lost in your every word
Feel every breath as I rest within your loving arms

Darkness consumes everything in sight
Creeping in to steal lost souls
Silent screams fill the night
To be lost in the deafening shadows

Dreams shatter
Worlds crumble
Pieces scatter
The end feels near

This is my life
My story from start to end
From the day I saw the light
To the day I crawled towards the darkness


Saturday, March 26, 2016

Chillin ©©

Day after day
Night after night
We struggle to stay awake
Struggle to be alive

We rush through life
Like water down a slippery slope
Passing up opportunities
Missing moments we will never have again

Life is not a revolving door
But more like an escalator
Carrying us to places we can’t reach fast enough
Then dumped at the end to find your own way forward, or back

We wander and wander
Watching, hearing, feeling
Touching everything with all our senses
Grasping at moments to remember

Take me to a moment in time
Where dreams are born
Where the stairs don’t disappear into the night
But wistfully carry you into eternity


Friday, February 19, 2016

My Town ©©

Up on the hill I look down at my town
Where three rivers meet into one
From the river I look across, then behind
Standing where two cultures meet as one

At the corner of time I listen to the love and hate
See the indifference between faith, culture and conscience
Hear words of hope
View acts of kindness

On a park bench a man is curled up under a blanket of snow
A brother and sister build a snowman not far from him
Tim Hortons and the Beer Store share the same lot across the street
Where to park?

A dog climbs a mountain of snow and goes for a shit
It rolls down only to stop by my feet
Is life that simple
Or am I about to step in it

Up on the hill I look up at the sky
Chicken Little comes to mind
All I can think of is “the sky is falling”
Is it an acorn or can that fucken dog really climb that high


Monday, September 14, 2015

Labels ©©

Who am I?
Who are you?
Am I a number?
Are you a letter?

My name is Peter
Could be Jack
Yours might be Betty
Or Jill

Are we the labels others placed on us?
Or are we the shadows that lurk inside?
The souls that guide our actions
Defining who we really are.

Once we were all a thought
Then a reality
Branded before being sent off into the crowd
People with given labels

I’m a stray
A reject to be punished for every indiscretion
A rebel to be hunted down and silenced
Kept away from the herd

We ask who are you
To know you
But it’s what you want
Who you really are


Wednesday, May 06, 2015

Slap Happy ©©

Day after day I hide to stay sane
Night after night I struggle not to run
One is hell
The other surrender

I fight my battles
Losing every one
Yet I get right back up
Only to be knocked back down

I wonder what is going on
But I don’t know that I care to know
I see only the fog between day and night
A curtain shading what’s real

Who am I
Who have I become
Who is that in my reflection
Who are you

Hands on my face
I feel the lines of time
Stubble scrapping callused hands
Hands that touched your tender flesh

Day always fads into night
Transforming the world into another
Is it
Which is real


Tuesday, May 05, 2015

In The Moonlight ©©

In the moonlight I find the answers
Answers I don’t understand
To questions that only exist in the stars
Where all dreams reside

In the moonlight I see the shadows
I watch them darting back and forth 
Some from the past while others look familiar, yet not
Not from a time gone by

In the moonlight I see what can’t be reached
The impossible to grasp and hold onto
The falling star to catch
Then to set free without a wish

In the moonlight I see inside my mind
It’s like being in a dream
Filled with everything I have seen
Things I have been holding onto                 

In the moonlight I see love
A love so pure my eyes can’t look away
Love that is so consuming
It swallows up your heart

In the moonlight I am no longer blind
I see the shadows and they are I
Images of what was and what will be
Stumbling in the darkness of time


Friday, March 13, 2015

Dancing Shadows ©©

Looking down the road
I see the lights in the distance
Is it going to look like it does in my dreams

When I get there and the night comes
Is the music going to rock n roll
Or will it be slow and steady

We will find each other between each song
Moving among the shadows
Swaying back and forth lost in our minds

Will we swing to the rhythm of the time
Or crash and burn on sour notes
Bringing the whole world down all around

When the clocks strikes twelve
The song fades away
As do the dancing shadows

Looking down the road
I see the lights in the distance
Is it a dream


Tuesday, March 03, 2015

Salt On The Earth ©©

I stare down at salt stained shoes
I’m tired
The world around is crumbling
Falling apart into pieces and dust

Blood drips from lacerated palms
Slashed apart by the falling souls
Souls you never catch
The ones that slip through your fingers every time

Looking up
There is no more left to soar to the stars with
The gas tank is almost done
Just enough to move ahead down the road

The crimson trail marks the passage of time
The cost of this lease on life we choose to pay for
No one stays behind
They just fade away

Can anybody see through the dark clouds
Through the smoke, dust and the fog
Through time


Monday, February 16, 2015

The Thunder Speakes ©©

Thunder rolls across angry skies
Reaching down to scorch the earth
To touch the damned
Before the gates of hell open

Crops burn in the fields
Corpses rot where they lay
Scattered among the smouldering carnage
Of what once was, is

They rode in on steeds never before seen
War ‘s dog ate with a ravenous appetite
Famine’s beast drank the pure water pissing out acid
Death rode a lawnmower

Conquest didn’t have a ride
After War, Famine and Death
There was nothing left
Just what we inherit

An apocalypse brews in the east
While the west sleeps
The thunder screams the names of forgotten souls
A warning from the grave…from the past


Monday, February 09, 2015

Now What? ©©

Today tomorrow and yesterday will for always be intertwined
Their tentacles knotted together through the annals of memory
Like hungry lovers always holding, reaching out, letting go, trying to escape…
… time            

Today is an orgy of time gone by and time lost in a desire for the future
The pain of yesterday embracing the hope of what’s to come
A burning fire soothed with what might be in…

Tomorrow doesn’t exist but in dreams
Dreams not touch by another’s thoughts
Treasures that will live forever because they live outside of…

Yesterday is the villain with its lifetime of memories
Constantly flashing between the blinks of your eyes
Reliving the bits and pieces scattered through…

Now is what matters


Monday, January 19, 2015

Roads ©©

I walk down this road and every road alone
I walk in search for something I can’t have
Something I can reach but can never hold on to
Something that keeps escaping my every embrace

Down this road or from the one just travelled
Never have I strayed from my desires
Always faithful to a quest we are all born too
A love we can make our own

Through a highway of souls we collide into each other
Faces fly by as you look for the one searching for yours
Thoughts filter out the rest leaving just the two
Alone among a smouldering sea of souls still searching faces

I walk down this road to what isn’t meant to be
Searching for what I can’t have
Something I can’t keep but maybe for a little while
That’s something too


Wednesday, January 14, 2015

The Edge Of Darkness ©©

Another early morning
Or is it a late afternoon
Another day dissolving into nothing

When you finally wake from living
You know you've been gone because...
There’s nothing left except a pain inside

You run and run
But you can’t escape from what’s part of you
What’s branded to your very soul

You jump from world to world to hide
Yet you always fall back
Fall right back to the one you are chained too

You have become a prisoner in another’s dream
A puppet on strings that tug at your heart and mind
Making you see what’s not there

A string begins to fray
Then another and another
Until they break and you are left in a heap on the floor

Are you free or is it still a dream
Is it a dream or is this what’s left
A pile of time and flesh on the ground

Another late evening
Or is it early night
Another day washed away by the darkness


Sunday, January 04, 2015

Requiem Of Solace ©©

A shiver runs through my soul as I stare off into the night
I don’t know why or what it means
Dark clouds hide the moon plunging the night into total darkness
I hear whispers but can’t hear what they are saying
They are all around me, not far
Not close

As I walk ahead they get farther yet the ones behind are closer
Turning I lean forward to listen but they fall silent
Standing there I listen to my past
My future
But I don’t know what they are saying or what they want
Or even if they are talking to me

Shadows dance to the whispers
Fading in and out of time
Long grey fingers grasp out of the darkness at the night
Desperately longing to touch something familiar
Something to bring it back from the darkness
There is nothing but emptiness left inside this void in time

The wind pushes the dark clouds away
Allowing the moon to shine down once more
There is still nothing but the shadows with no faces all around
Whispering their memories from afar wanting to be remembered
But the moon reveals a path through the shadows to follow
A way out of the darkness perhaps

Or not………..


Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Shadow Of One Soul ©©

Close your eyes
Clap your hands
Wish everything away
The pain, the hate, the love you thought you knew

Open them once more and see what you want to feel
Paint a portrait of what you want your world to be
Then hold it close for it’s make believe
A dream within a dream

Exhale yesterday
Breath in what is today
Let a new sparkle ignite your eyes
Explore what is never lost 

Close your eyes once more
Hold yourself close
Feel your heart beat, feel the blood racing through your veins 
Feel what it’s like to live within your soul
Open your eyes
See that nothing has changed
Everything is the same
But you


Friday, December 19, 2014

Finding The Way ©©

Going down this road
Going to see if I can find you like I do in my dreams
Staring to the east as I walk west
Before I can lay down with you to rest

I’m going to look in the morning
Through the afternoon and into the evening
When the moon climbs up the night sky
The stars will lead the way

Some day the fork in the road will go your way
Down that path to your door
Where I will knock on your heart
Then I’m going to make you mine

Somehow I will find the way
Where to turn
When to stop
What to say

I will know your mind
As you will know mine
Words will melt away
When your eyes say what they say

Some day, some where
Time will be mine as it will be yours
Some how when the sun falls away
My dreams will bring you my way


Thursday, December 18, 2014

Shatter Effect ©©

I watch the wisp of smoke twist its way up into the night sky
Distorting its reality to its surroundings
Firing off a second ring with considerable force
It crashes into the first shattering its world into oblivion


Monday, December 15, 2014

Whisper This ©©

I’ve travelled down long winding roads
Each a different path
A different place of mind
Yet with the same ending

Watching time pass through the years
Burning desire with every breath
I’ve sold my soul to the devil
For but a moment to feel what love is

Not the words that are but an introduction to a thought
Touch only kindles desire
It’s the feeling that makes you weak at the knees
The first thing we forget when the heart grows cold

I am a nomad of hearts
A prisoner to my own
A slave to be used and abused
Until the end of time

Where do I go now
On an adventure or to the start of another ending
Is this all a bad dream that you never wake up from
Is it all in vein

The highway of life is long and lonely
For Nomads of the heart
Nomads in an endless pursuit of one thing
That feeling we can only share with someone else


Wednesday, November 26, 2014

The End Of The Beginning ©©

At the beginning of life

Every sound was music to tender ears
Every breath a taste of being
Each scent a lure to follow
Each taste a new sensation

At the beginning of awareness

Words became sounds
Words expressing feelings
Words that gave the music meaning
Mighty words

At the beginning of deliverance

You embrace the world
The world takes you in
Throws you down then picks you up
But it loves you… why

At the beginning of awakening

It’s to late, is it
I see what I never saw
It was always there
Was I blind

At the beginning of tomorrow

Every touch had endless meanings
Every thought just melts
Each memory fades from existence
Yesterday slips away

At the beginning of the path

Is it the start to the end
The road to freedom
The way to the promised land
The place you want to be

The beginning

The beginning is the end
It’s the start we never witness
As we never see the end
Just the shit in between


Monday, November 24, 2014

Fading Away ©©

I want to come out of the shadows, out of the darkness
I want to see tomorrow and the day after

I want to find a cloud to float on
I want to go where no one has gone before

I want to be the stranger you never knew
I want to call you friend
I want to hold your hand until forever
I want to breath the air from your lips
I want to see your heart through your eyes
I want to drink a cupful of your soul

I want to feel what I can’t feel

I want to find what I can never have

I want what you want

I want


Saturday, November 22, 2014

Nothing ©©

In the twilight of time
Through the mists of Avalon
A hand reaches out into the shadows grasping at the darkness
But there is nothing there

In the space between the seconds
Where all thoughts live
There is only silence
Because there is nothing there

In the dawn when I wake up
The mists are gone with all the dreams that lived there
I am left in the valley of deception
Because there was nothing ever there

In the twilight of time
The seconds keep ticking by
Without any spaces
Because there is nothing there


Tuesday, October 21, 2014

Into The Night ©©

I wander around in circles
Lost in familiar spaces
Searching to be found
Or trying to melt away into the night

All around me everything is the same
Everyone I know I recognize
Yet I am lost and no one knows who I am
Or hears my screams in the night

How can this be
Who will save me from this
Bring me back to the light
What has to be done before the night

I have become a ghost among the living
Disappeared from sight
Swallowed up by the night

Time goes round and round
Following me as I chase what I don’t know
What I can only feel
Into darkness, into the night


Friday, September 19, 2014

Silence ©©

Day in, day out
I look for the sunshine
Search for the stars
Reaching for what I desire

Night after night
I’m alone in the darkness
Passed by, by many shadows
Mocked by the stars I confess too

I saw a sound in a dream
A thought, that reminded me of you
A memory lost among the stars
Hidden on the dark side of the moon

That’s me on a bench looking up at the sky
Selling my soul
Confessing the sins that I desire
Day or night I yearn for what I need


Saturday, January 18, 2014

Cloudy Nights ©©

Alone in the night
No one by my side
The sky is clear
Not a cloud for the stars to hide

I remember when I didn’t need anyone
I lived from day to day
Just by myself
With no one to hear what I had to say

Alone in the dark
Lost among the shadows
Forgotten from the outside
In a place where no one knows

Then there was someone
Sticking out in a crowd
Not lost
Just found

The stars look lonely
Without the moon
Time flies by
It will be back soon


Thursday, December 19, 2013

Black Tie ©©

With the bottom of my fist I wiped the fog from the glass
A bitter cold day
I saw a tear bounce off the pavement where it was swallowed up by the fresh snow
In the car mirror I could see the tired eyes as I straightened the black tie
Cold fingers reached in as I opened the door burning my exposed face then pulled me out

Walking up the slippery slope, seven more fell in behind in a single file
In silent cadence marching through a somber crowd
Thirty twenty ten no feet to our destination where we parted into two flanking lines
One more joined us as we acdcepted his final burden
This one seened heavier the the one last week

Faces froze in time as the small precesion made its way through the throngs of stones growing out of the ground
I felt the metal brace on the left leg snap leaving the knee it protects to fend for itself
My aunt reached up to hold me erect when my hand fell against her granite pillow
Turning we reached our final destination where we left our host
Without a word we all took a step back to disappear among the others

I saw most of these people just a week ago
At the same place
For the same reason
I need a new brace
I hate black ties


Saturday, September 14, 2013

Darkness ©©

It’s dark
I can’t see
I can’t see what I hear
I can’t see what I feel

Can you see
Can you see for me and tell me
What you see
What you feel

Tell me if it’s beautiful
If it’s real
What you feel
That which reached out and touched you

Is it familiar
Would I know it
Feel it like you do at this moment
Or is it a memory

Is there anyone out there
Out in the dark
Like me, like you
Who can see what we feel

How can we find our way
It’s getting darker
I can’t see
It’s dark


Friday, August 30, 2013

Once Upon A Trap In Time ©©

Once upon a time I was small
I believed in fairy tales
The tooth fairy and Santa Clause
Even god
But then I grew up and found out
The tooth fairy was my gay dentist
Fairy tales were lies
And god was dog spelled backwards

Once upon a time I was blind
I flowed with in river of souls
Went where they went
Believed what they believed
But then I woke up and saw
The river being swallowed up by every sewer
On every corner
Under every star

Once upon a time I heard words I trusted
Words with meaning that spoke to my needs
Embracing my desires
Giving meaning for what was
But then I learned to read
I read the words that were left out
Words never meant to be heard
Or spoken

Once upon a time I didn’t have the time
The world went by to fast to stop and think
To understand what was happening
Or why was life like this
But then time stood still
A million questions with millions of answers
Knocked me out of the cloud
Reality spoke for the first time

Once upon a time before there was anything
There was no people
No dreams to shoot for
No God
But then we came to be and dreams were born
Fairies lived in flowers
Santa and the Tooth Fairy share a glass of milk
God is what we make of him 

Once upon a time we dreamed 
Of what we wanted
Not needed
Until we became lost with what we asked for
But then we were found by those who were looking
Searching for you in particular
Wanting your blessing but not really needing it
It just looks better when you think you gave it