Thursday, September 21, 2023

Have You ©©

Have you ever woken up 

Standing a top the highest peak

Have you ever found yourself in the dark

Not knowing what you seek

Have you seen your life flash by

While still dreaming of a future

Have you seen it all

Yet it’s all a blur

Have you ever felt your heart hurt so much

You wish it would stop beating

Have you ever let go of something

Knowing you were not meant to hold onto

Have you seen me

Out amongst the dark skies

Have you ever found yourself 

Wandering down empty streets

Have you ever looked into the eyes 

Of those you know

Have you lived or just existed

As you march into the setting sun

Have you ever held someones hand

Did it warm up your  soul

Have you seen someones face

After you smile back

Have you 


Tuesday, July 19, 2022

Free To Fade Away ©©


Freedom is a cost that I can no longer afford

All I wanted was to be who I was

I wanted to walk among other human beings unimpeded

Free to live free without borders or any limitations

I searched across oceans and deserts

Over mountains I stumbled

Freedom is impossible to find

Not even in any bedrooms I’ve been lost in

I see a different world from what I used to be

I can’t find what I’m looking for because I don’t exist

Each breath I take is stolen from the past I was

Today is not where I have gone but where i have been abandoned

I just want to run away from it all but I only manage to fade away

This is not where it all begins, it’s where it all falls apart

The night crumbles all around me

I have become aware that freedom has become a prison

Is it me that has become indifferent

Does it matter what I do to make it all better

How can I change who I am to find what is impossible to have

Freedom, is it just a word, a thing or the end


Monday, October 04, 2021

Sailing Under Blue Skies ©©

Is this the end or a new beginning
Things are changing as the dream crumbles away
In this new beginning will I have freedom
Or will I have to run and hide

All I see are glass walls
The fearless running naked in the streets
The fearful cowering in their cubicles
Fields of humans filling the promised land

This is where it all begins
Where fear battles ignorance
The winner claiming our souls
With the future of humanity on the line

I know we can’t hide forever
We can’t run from the inevitable
Fighting each other is pointless
Suicidal, unless this is what they want

I’m just tired of it all
I want to pick a star and sail away
Somewhere far where freedom is in every breath you take
Every thought you make

Sail away to the past
Where the future is only a thought
Life was free
The skies were blue


Saturday, September 18, 2021

It's In The Stars ©©

Run away with me into the night
Take my heart to places only you can reach
Far from the craziness that’s all around
To a place where only love can find

The stars map the way to my heart
A path for someone to find and explore
To a place where love is not a stranger
Yet absent in the skies

How many times I have felt love
Sought and failed it
Never has it been hard to find
Just hard to hold onto

All the times I thought I got it right
It felt and was what it was meant to be
Each and every time I held onto the thought
Sacrificed feelings that tortures ones soul

I put my heart in you hand
To take it where you please
To run away with me into the night
To follow the stars to the end of time


Friday, August 20, 2021

Ghosts ©©

Is it safe to go outside
I have been locked away inside for so long
Left to live with myself
Forced to look within

Fear bound our bodies
Threatened our freedom
The rules imprisoned us from all we were used to
Punished us for our own good

Do you know what went wrong
How did all this happen
So many people viciously attacked
The dead, the walking dead

Were we betrayed
By who
Was it them
Was it us

Is the cure enough
Is it all we need or is it just for now
How did we succumb to such indignities
And all that’s still to come

I am alone in my thoughts
A wounded soul
Shattered by time and all that’s been
Left wandering all alone, surrounded by ghosts


Monday, June 21, 2021

Running Out Of Time ©©

 Another sleepless night
Another early morning
Another wasted afternoon
Another day gone lost

Time goes running by
It doesn’t stop to look back
It doesn’t slow down for you to get off
It keeps going on and on

Stepping out into the wilderness
Everyone seems to be running
Everyone is running to be somewhere
Aimlessly crashing into each other

It’s a mad world beneath our feet
Keeping us running from there to here
Sometimes nowhere but to our minds
Making us insane with what is real

Living is not enough
This can’t be all that there is
There has to be more
More than just this

The clock on the wall is ticking away
Telling us that time doesn’t wait
Telling us that it doesn’t repeat itself
Telling us we’re running out of time

Every night I lay down thinking about tomorrow
Every morning is the same
Every afternoon is lost in thought
What can I do


Sunday, May 23, 2021

Empty Palm ©©

Give me your hand
Let’s walk through the dark of night
We can dance among the shadows
Hide from all the prying eyes

Give me your hand
Let’s walk along the beach
We can fall into the water
Send waves up to the stars

Give me your hand
Let’s travel the land
We can see what is strange and new
Whilst we discover who we are

Give me your hand
Let’s sit by the fire
We can get lost in the flames
While being swallowed up by our thoughts

Give me your hand
Let’s chase time together
Give it a run no one will forget
Until the end of dawn

Give me your hand…


Wednesday, May 12, 2021

The Highway Of Doubt ©©

Time after time I hear the chatter of life
The laughter, the tears
The cheers roaring through clear skies
The wails that pierce the soul in the darkest of night
The skin’s weathered and withered
Lines carved into seasoned leather that measures time
Laughter and pain distort what was born
Into what we see before us
A stranger to any mother
Yet stranger to none other

Down this highway of life
I, we travel blindly with a purpose
Innocently falling into the bondage of social disrepair
Freedom that has a price we are forced to pay
Becoming willing slaves of circumstance
Is it all in vain
We torture our minds with questions we already have answered
This darkness hiding beneath the laughter and smiles
How often I have gone to sleep
Hoping to awaken to another reality

Why do we need to rest to find peace
Someone once said “All you need is love”
He got shot in the back
Fate always awaits us all down the highway of life
Each exit with a different fate
But in the end all exits make their way to the same place
The same destination
Only time will tell your story
Your beginning
Your end


Monday, May 10, 2021

Cold Sweat ©©

Say you, say
Tell me of what you know
Tell me before you turn your back and go
Tell me what no one else knows
Something special
Something right
Something wrong
Just, something

The nights grow cold as the days grow long
Tears pour out of darkened skies
Washing away the dirt and grime
But the sins of time always remain
Poisoning all the tomorrows to come with that
That, that doesn’t exist
It’s not something that can be seen
Because it never was

What happened to you
What happened to me
If we close our eyes would we see what was
Or what we have become
This or that
Shadows of yesterdays
Names only whispered beneath the winds of time
Myths to become

Is there nothing left to say
This void is tearing all of us part
Striking us down
Smothering us with the unknown
Hate and despair
Who can we trust
All those lies told

Is there anyone left out there
Hiding in the darkness
Waiting to escape their prison
To scream about liberty and freedom
Tell me something I don’t already know
Something special
Something dark
Just, something


Tuesday, December 22, 2020

Viral Insurrection ©©

Down dark lonely streets I follow

Past alleys beckoning to swallow me up

Listening for familiar sounds

Touching the air for a taste of what fills my soul

The shadows stretch across barren walls

Hiding what time has written upon them

Out of the minds that were

For those who have forgotten to read 

Hey man, what can I say that others haven’t said before

No one listened then so why, why, why would they now

The sounds of children playing, a woman’s screams in the night

Do we care anymore

We are becoming a lost generation

Forgetting who we were

Who we wanted to become

Settling for what is given us

Darkness comes for us all

Will we let it swallow us up

Will the shadows drag us off down the dark alleys

Or will we say no, no, no more, I can’t take it anymore


Monday, June 29, 2020

Time passes by
Can you see it flying away
Can you hear it in your head
Can you feel it draining your soul

If I press my hands to my ears
Will the bleeding stop
Will the memories remain
Can I remember who I am

The silence is deafening
The screams driving me insane
In my head you are dying
Gone forevermore

I know what tomorrow will bring
It’s in my head
In your heart
In our souls

Can you feel
Can you see
Can you hold
What you can never embrace

You just can’t touch this


Sunday, May 19, 2019

Alone ©©

Alone at home
Alone in the world
Alone in the universe

Where have all the people gone
Where has time run off too
Where did all those years go
Where are all the stars I wanted to hold

It feels like all is gone
Was it something I did wrong
Am I sad
Am I glad

Am I alone or just lost in a cloud
Alone in a crowd
Are we so much alike that we are lost to each other
Can there be a cure, a cure for what

All alone far from people
A long long way from home
Where time has stopped
All alone but for my thoughts

What does it all mean
Has the universe become so small
Or has my soul lost hope in the unknown


Wednesday, February 13, 2019

Eternal Cumbustion Of The Mind ©©

Through the fog of time
Across the expanse of my mind
Plucking out my eyes in search for a soul
I dive into the void for more

What will I find
Who will I find
Will it be yours
Or will it be mine

Will you be my whore
Will you make me your bitch
Can I learn to love again
Can you learn to hate what I am

Will you judge
Will I lust
Can I trust
Can you betray

How can there be something
When nothing lives forever
What can I give
That, that can’t be taken away

What am I waiting for
Laying here on the floor
Locked in a prison
That once was a soul

In the fog of time
I tear at my mind
Swallowing my eyes back inside
I hope I don’t crap them back out


Tuesday, January 08, 2019

Maybe ©©

Sometimes I look in the mirror and don’t know who I see.
Sometimes I hear myself and think, who the fuck is that
Everyday I walk out into the crowds and disappear
Everyday people walk right through me

Maybe I’m here
Maybe I’m not

Sometimes I say hi to another human and they run away
Sometimes I walk into a business and they call the police
Everyday I try to be who I am
Everyday someone wants to step on me

Maybe it’s my fault
Maybe it’s not

Sometimes I think I am a different person
Sometimes I think I am not
Everyday I scream to myself, what is your problem
Everyday I screw up

Maybe it’s fate
Maybe it’s not

Sometimes the world is cruel and unforgiving
Sometimes what is right, is very wrong
Everyday the Earth bleeds souls
Everyday I look into the mirror and see it’s cracked

Maybe it’s me
Maybe I’m cracked too


Thursday, October 11, 2018

Footsteps ©©

Footsteps skip across the night
I hear them slipping and sliding
Coasting down the road
Not in a rush yet, not casual

Are they going somewhere close
Or somewhere far
Are they going somewhere special
Or fleeing another life

The night howls but the footsteps clatter on
Singing their way through the night
Rain can’t slow them down
The mud clings to their souls

I can hear them clear as day
Marching to their own tune
Tripping on unforeseen obstacles
But never stopping on the way to the unknown

The wind pushes back
Pounding and clawing at the night
The footsteps move forward
Seeking no relief from what lays before or after

Footsteps kicking out a tune
As clear as day I can hear that they’re mine
I used to think that there was a way out of here
The footsteps I follow are mine


Tuesday, September 18, 2018

Highway ©©

The highway of life takes us away
Into the night
Through wind and rain
Lost and bewildered
Delivering us to tomorrow
Robbing us of all the yesterdays

The highway of life snakes through time
Bringing me to the doorway of your heart
To your world
To a new, yet old feeling
To the pleasure and pain that it courts
Fulfilling the cravings that seer ones loins

The highway of life gives us purpose
A reason to follow
A need to find what lays over there
With the moon lighting the path
Guiding us down the path that we have chosen to travel down
The one that lures us ahead

The highway of life lays void
Waiting for us too paint the landscapes ahead
To lead the way for others to find 
To come and see what the future holds
To see how far you got
Or just to see what’s on the other side of the hill

The highway of life is long for some
Short for others
It’s sexy, yet ugly
It’s gentle, but brutal
It’s long and winding
It’s the highway of life


Saturday, September 08, 2018

Lost Inside The Machine ©©


Time goes by
The silence grows
Humanity is dissolving into the shadows
Hiding from the truth

Who is right
Who is wrong
Why does it matter
Is it all about me

Don’t you like the colour of my skin
It’s soft
Is it my religion
I don’t believe in one, I believe in all of them

Is it my sex
I have a cock 
But I have been told I could be a real cunt
Does that make me a hermaphrodite

Does it matter where you have been
Where you come from
Where you want to go
Or only where you end up

Space is not the home of the stars
It’s the silence between each second of time
The silence that consumes us all
Keeping us from reaching for the stars

Each child born into this dream
Will be swallowed up by the machine
The gears chewing up their souls
Fuelling the beast

Deafening silence
Mute souls
Battered and beaten
The walking dead

When will we break the silence
Find the courage, the will
To scream out this is MY DREAM
My soul



Friday, August 24, 2018

Life Is A Battlefield ©©

Nights lost in thought
Never finding what I need
A sky filled with stars
None I can touch

Nights spent walking 
Through a jungle of wants
Stumbling over selfish desires
Falling among lost dreams

Nights hiding behind shadows
Reaching out into the night
Grasping for a sliver of light
But none exist

Nights wrestling life
Pushing back when pushed
Winning all the battles 
Yet loosing every war

Nights laying in bed
Thinking of where I’ve been
What I’ve done
Who I am


Thursday, August 23, 2018

Silence ©©

Whatever happened to you?
Whatever happened to me?
Whatever happened to us?
Where did it all go wrong?

Was it me?
Was it you?
Did we fail?
Or is this survival?

Do I remember you?
Do you remember me?
Do you remember us?
Did it happen?

Drums roll across the sky
Lightning lashes out
The darkness explodes
As I look back one last time

When I wake up in the darkness
I see the light on the other side
When I wake up in the morning
I feel the darkness inside me

It’s alright
I live in the night
In the darkness 
Always following that light


Friday, March 09, 2018

Who Will Love You ©©

I have walked through the ages
Touched endless souls
Seen another’s pain
Caressed your love with a whisper

I have reached out in the night
Filling my arms with nothing but memories
Thoughts of days when we played in the darkness
Danced among the shadows

I was the devil that said I love you
You the angel that made it feel real
Then you were no longer there
And I'm left standing here all alone

All the time in the world is not enough
To heal every aching soul with the love that is
Forever is not enough when I have nothing left
Nothing is all that remains

Who will still love you when there is nothing left to love
How will you love someone when you have nothing left to give 
When I look at the heavens I see the stars looking down
Bright and beautiful, a million angels smiling my way


Tuesday, November 07, 2017

Dead End Mind ©©

I’ve reached the end
This is as far as I can run
As far as I can go and still
Hold onto any dignity that may be left

This is where time stops you in your tracks
Telling you “I can’t carry you anymore”
“Turn, fight or lay down”
“Fade away with the fog consuming your mind”

So, this is the end?
It’s bitter taste choking any words that may be left
Reasons and excuses muted by reality
Lost among any truths that may still exist

This is where the four corners of the world meet
Forming a point in the center of a circle called earth
It’s where we all started
Where we all must come to find out who we are

Who am I?
Who have you made me into?
Is this really the end?


Sunday, October 29, 2017

Over Yonder ©©

I woke up this morning and walked a thousand miles
For lunch, I walked a thousand more
By midday I was ten thousand miles from home
At midnight I stood on the moon looking down at our world

Like a blue pearl staring up at me
Its tall mountains reaching up to the heavens
Beckoning me to come back
To find my way home

I look away to the stars
I want to go over yonder
Far from the world I know
Far from who I am

Over there is who I want to be
Here I am who I am
Surrounded by those who tear at my soul
Shredding any dreams, I may have

A million miles to get away
A billion more to get lost
A trillion miles to disappear
Infinity to cease to exist


Saturday, August 26, 2017

Homeward Bound ©©

I walk through light and darkness
Crossed oceans, climbed mountains
Grasped for what was just out of reach
Crossed the Jordan and fell in the river Styx

Across lush meadows into a land that didn’t exist
I searched for what could be
Found what wasn’t there
Yet still fell in love

I chased a dream
Far from where I began
Stalked by time to the end of the world
I ran off of that cliff and into tomorrow

Falling through time
I saw what was
Felt it all pour in all at once just that last moment
When life rushed up to kiss my ass goodbye

Some would say I'm going to hell
I say watch CNN
Hell sounds like home


Wednesday, June 28, 2017

Far ©©

Far from where I am
Far from who I was
Far from where I had to be

Wandering from land to land
From bed to bed
From one heart to another
Another stain you can’t wash away

Far from the shadows that be
Far from what I believe
Far from here

Ghosts wander these strange lands
Faceless figures with hollow souls
Grasping the air for something to fill the emptiness

Far out of touch
Far from reality
Far from the pain

Falling away from the light
Falling far into the night
Falling far out of reach
Falling into an endless abyss


Saturday, June 24, 2017

Monkey Business ©©

Sitting here in the night
Watching the sky looking down on me
I feel like I have been here before
Staring the hours, days away

When I close my eyes
I hear the leaves rustling in the trees
The coons tussling in the refuse
Fighting the creatures of the night for just one bite

I cover my ears
Sheltering my senses from the deafening silence
The voices are still there locked away in my mind
Prisoners of my soul

I cover my mouth
Yet the screams grow louder
Sounding familiar
They must be mine

Sitting here in time
In a beautiful world
Painted on a dirty canvas
Covered with ugly colors


Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Where Do I Belong ©©

I think I have been here before
A long time ago
I came back too see what I left behind and found
I didn't belong

Sitting on a stool in the shadows of this bar
The bouncer at the door I've seen before
He's older than I
Forgotten by time, or lost

People walk by
A woman is murdering "crazy train" on the Karaoke machine
Others cheer her on
I want too die

My glass is empty
It's time to fade away
But a shadow grabs me from behind
With a haunting voice she stops me dead in my tracks

The room was empty
But for two shadows locked in time
Her moist lips winking at me with each word
Each breath that she took her breasts took mine away

Our eyes found each other and we knew
I didn't belong here
She closed her eyes and touch my soul
Outstretched arms beckoned me into her bosom

The sky was clear
Full of stars
The air crisp as it flowed all around
When she opened her eyes I was gone


Sunday, March 26, 2017

A Twinkle In The Night ©©

I walk into the wilderness
The sky is dark but for the stars and the moon
Silence all around
The wind wrestles the leaves in the trees

When the night comes
The shadows fall away
With nothing to hear
There is nothing left to fear

I have climbed this mountain to touch the sky
Reaching up above to be closer
Not to a god but a freedom I can’t explain
Only understand as I feel it

Life can be great
If you’re not afraid to walk into the wilderness
We walked away from the jungle and got lost
Forgot how to survive, how to live

Step outside and chase the night
Run until you find the dawn
Then look around
See how far you’ve come

The moon smiles from up above
The stars twinkle as they always have
Climb a mountain to see what you can touch
I have


Wednesday, March 15, 2017

Sweet Dreams ©©

Sweet dreams are made of these
Memories you never seen
Sweet dreams are made of those
Thoughts you never had

Some of those dreams you wanted
None of them you can touch
Some you had
None you could hold on too

We travel everywhere in a blink of an eye
Imprisoned in a heartbeat
Wandering in a trance

What are we looking for
What are you looking for
What am I looking for
What will it cost

Love me
Hate me
Hurt me
Forget me

Sweet dreams are made of all of these
Sweet desires
Sweet secrets
Sweet dreams to live and die by

Sweet dreams are made of these
Memories you never had
Sweet dreams are made of those
Desires you can’t have

Sweet dreams


Monday, February 20, 2017

Dream Weaver ©©

I was sitting in my room
Staring at four naked walls
Paper peeling to the floor
Dreaming of living in a dream of times gone by

I’m sitting in a room
Staring out a dirty window
There’s knocking at the door
Is it real or a dream from before?

Locked in this room
Paint in my nails
Pushing a door without a handle
Is it a nightmare to fear?

Shackled to the floor
It rolls away from the past
I can’t even turn to run away
What’s on your mind when you’re lost in time?

Is this room my home?
Is it my cell for all those lies that I have told?
Whatever happened to me?
What happened to you?

I’m sitting in this room
Staring at four walls
Dreaming of you
Dreaming of me

Just dreaming


Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Lost In My Mind ©©

I sit here lost in time
Void of any thoughts
Disconnected with any memories
Any sense of who am I

I have become blind
Sands of time bleed from empty sockets
Eroding the past
Leaving only crevices behind

I have become deaf
To my needs and yours
To the cries I don’t see
To the pain I don’t feel

I have lost the ability to speak
There is no one to hear
There is no one out there but the shadows
There is no one that cares

Lost in ones mind
Is it a curse or a blessing
Will I find what I am looking for
Or just fade away and never come back

Sitting here
Lost in time


Friday, June 17, 2016

The MIst ©©

A thick mist rolls across a naked land
A land scared will a billion heartaches
A billion souls scratching the earth for peace
Watered with oceans of bitter tears and a drop of pity

A thick mist kneels down to the ground
Embracing the passage of time
Caressing yesterday
For the tomorrows that may be or not

A thick mist hides what mustn’t be seen
From light or darkness
Light of day only brings on the shadows
Darkness of night hides them away

A thick mist rides a white stallion across the land
What is it bringing?
Is it love?
Or the four horsemen of the apocalypse

A thick mist silently comes……….


Friday, June 03, 2016

I Don't Know ©©

I don’t know where I have been
I don’t know what I have seen
I don’t know where I’m going
Or where I want to be

I don’t know day from night
I don’t know right from wrong
I don’t know the whys
Or the regrets

I don’t know who I am
I don’t know my face
I don’t know my name
Or do I want to know them

I don’t know god
I don’t know the devil
I don’t know good from bad
Or do I care for any of those things

I don’t know the legions of the day
I don’t know the shadows of the night
I don’t know this realm
Or do I wish to rule 

I don’t know the reason to be here
I don’t see the reason to leave
I don’t see the logic
Or the injustice

I don’t know


Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Forget It All ©©

If I walked to the top of the world
Will I know the answers to all the questions
Will the answers be the ones I thought they would be
Or something new

If I watch the night sky
Will I find the star that’s meant for me
Will it be big and bright
Or small and fading away

If I was all alone
Will the world be the same
Will it be perfect
Or just another empty soul

If I lay down and reached for the sky
Will I catch a falling star
Will it grant me a wish
Or burn my hand

If I never grew old
Will I still want to get old
Will I want to die
Or just live and live again

If I knew all the answers
Will I want to share them
Will it make us better
Or should they just be forgotten

If I didn’t need anything
Will it be enough
Will it be fulfilling
Or will I want more

If we play…
If we Love…
If we fight…
We will live forever



Thursday, May 26, 2016

Whatever Happened ©©

What day is it today
What happened to yesterday
What happened to you
Whatever happened to me

Where did it all got wrong
Was it from the start
The middle
Or the end

Who is that in the mirror
Is it the same person
Or someone new
Where did you go

Old pictures
Memories covered in dust
Hiding forgotten faces
The same face

Whatever happened to you
Filled with fire
Burning with desire
Drowning in a maddening thirst

Did someone steal you away
Replacing your image with this one
Why did you have to go away
Leaving us with this impersonator 

Has time stolen everything
Leaving us with scattered crumbs
Fleeting seconds to be chased
But never caught